I took a nap and feel a shitload better. Also that poop I took helped out too. Funny how being dead tired from not sleeping all night cause of pain can do to your mood. That fucker is still in me though and that's annoying. Whate'er. Now I wanna see Monsters vs. Aliens, but someone who shall remain nameless doesn't answer her stupid broken phone. FUCKIN COCKASS.

I don't know what I did to deserve any of this. I guess I can't run away from pain, right?

this is not how i thought today would turn out.
i had a sweet plan to go to disney and thats not happening. i dont think ive ever cried this much. i hope i feel better soon.
i thought i could make her happy. i guess not.
but i also dont want to be a hinderance. hopefully things will get better, for everyone.

i just dont know what to do, or what to think. i know everyone goes though this but it doesnt make it any easier.
anyways, i still have a lot of love in me, i just dont know where to place it now.





ill miss you. always. thanks for the best 8 months of my life.

everyone here looks like a bunch of idiots.

sometimes i feel really fucking shitty, because i seem to be hurting the person that i most love in the world, the person i would literally die for. I don't want to be a hinderance, only make her life better. I just wish she'd tell me what she feels, even though she's been getting better at it.
If you read this, just know that I love you and that i'll always be there for you, no matter what.

Can't finish this without something else: Eddy is a fag.

Done.

i love you. you know who you are.

I hung out with Eddy today. He thinks he's fucking sick. What he doesn't know is that we are ALL SICK OF HIS BULLSHIT. He fucking is all sure of himself now, telling EVERYONE how his cock smells. He looks retarded without his beard. Fucking idiot.

Hitler would be very dissapointed.

I HAD TO SPEND THE ENTIRE FUCKING WEEKEND WITH EDDY. Not only did he have the balls to ask me to shave him, he also fucking slept at my house and ate my fucking pizza. I really wish he would just take a hard, long look into a mirror and see all his faults because fuck, there are so many, and quite frankly, its distracting. What a shit eater. If it wasn't for his mom, I would've murdered him in his moronic sleep years ago.

Pierre, im sorry, but no one talks about eddy other than me. I had to hear his horrible voice on the phone. I felt so bad afterwards, like one feels after they see a baby nazi get eaten by a hassidic jew rabbi. I can't believe he's still alive, as he is so FUCKING STUPID. HE CAN NOT DO THE SIMPLEST TASKS. HE IS INCOMPETENT AND AN IDIOT. I cry for anyone who has ever had any faith in him or his abilities.

Boo-Boo you are fucking beautiful. Please believe me. NOT FAT, I AM FAT I KNOW FAT. By saying you are fat you are insulting me and the years and dedication i put into becoming this way.

Eddy is finally gone.....yay. His fucking attitude is unbearable and all he talks about now is how pretty his cock is. NO FUCKING CARES ABOUT YOUR PRETTY COCK. It probably smells like donkey asshole, as that's his favorite treat.

On other news, I had a floater today. Reminded me of Tom Sawyer and Huckleberry Finn. Good times.

Eddy smells like an asshole today. Queer.

I just unleashed the colon cleasing of the century. I called Eddy today and had to hear his voice. EWWWW. What a fuckin fagget, he should really wax his back, son of a bitch. I wish I wore diapers so that every time I pooped, I could rub it on his dumb face.

I love you Boo Boo. (Make fun of me for that, whate'er. LOLZBAFAFYROFLMAO)

Eddy is such a fucking fagget. Look at him with his dumb beard and gay voice. I dont think he knows, but no one likes his fuckin attitude.

i just farted and almost shat my pants. one of the scariest moments in my life. once upon a time it would have been ok BUT IM NOT A FUCKIN BABE ANYMORE.